quick conversation

Boy Child and I were sitting on the couch this afternoon when he randomly says, "Mom, I know how to do a squat."
Me: You do? Where did you learn how to do that?
BC: iCarly
Me: *blank stare*

iCarly is teaching my son how to do squats.
Why does that seem wrong to me?
Really wrong; in ohh soo many ways.

crossroads

I had one of the most physically and emotionally draining weekends I have ever experienced in a really long time. It should go down in one of my record books, if I kept those, but I want to wipe this away from my memory.
Forever.

Instead here I stand.

Facing all these roads, not knowing which one to choose because they all look the same.
I feel so alone.

I had a conversation (email) with my cousin this morning and I think she just may have possibly put up at least one road block for me.

You must constantly ask yourself these questions:
Who am I around?
What are they doing to me?
What have they got me reading?
What have they got me saying?
Where do they have me going?
What do they have me thinking?
And most important, what do they have me becoming?
Then ask yourself the big question: Is that okay?

Your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change.


Seeing, reading and actually processing all those questions may have just changed my life in ways I never imagined.

the fine print

Soda: haven't had that in... ohh 7 years.
Beverages in a can? I don't consume them because carbonation is not my friend.

Until recently!

My dear friends at AriZona have put out this beauty! (along with a few other yummilicious flavors)

Sooo... it's been just say YES to beverages in a can! (non carbonated of course)

Although I'm not liking this process of popping the top, taking that first sip and realizing it just doesn't taste right.
Yet its at that exact moment when I see the words, "SHAKE WELL" when I realize I've done something wrong.

All those years of being told not to shake the cans have just gone down the pissah!

Now watch, next can I'm not supposed to shake, I will!

its never intentional

Dear Jennifer,

Seems to be that we have a problem. This blogcation you are on?
It has to end.
Right. Now.

Yes, I know you've met a guy. Yes, I know he's amazing. This is a relationship like you have never experienced. Ever.
You are being tried, tested and challenged above and beyond what you are used to. I think you can do it.
Wait.
I know you can do it.
Be optimistic and patient. Like I said; tried, tested and challenged, it's happening to you.
Love is amazing.

Yet other things in your life have changed and not all of them are for the better. Get your head out of your ass and get with the program.
The right program.

You're constantly tired. All. Day. Long!
You started walking. A lot. Then stopped.
Meat and cheese? Hello!! They are your enemy and now you're shoving them into your pie hole. Again??
Enough is enough.
Did you see those numbers on the scale this morning? Those are NOT acceptable. NO!
NOT at all.
Sugar. Remember what that does to you too?
Apparently, the constant stomach pain and lethargic feeling you are experiencing is alright with you.
In reality, this is a problem. BIG problem.
Sleep. Get more.
Peanut butter. Time to rethink this food again.
Gastric bypass. Remember why you had this surgery? I think you have lost sight of this. Get it back. NOW!

It's official. You have, yet again, slipped into a funk. I know it wasn't intentional. It never really is but you must do everything in your power to change it. Stop it. Or it will become irreversible.

Oh, and while you're out and about making changes I think it's time you find a new therapist. Apparently that is one relationship that is NOT working for you.

This is written only because someone had to.

photo courtesy: lerP