Monday, June 28, 2010

wouldn't ya know

I met someone...

... and he's amazing!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

friends

I'm not going to sugar coat this but I need to expand my social circle. I need more friends.

I have a small, real small, group of friends that I keep in touch with on a regular basis and well, that's it.
I moved away from my hometown about 10 years ago in hopes of starting over, making new friends, rebuilding... ya know-- the whole works and I'm back where I was before the move; feeling very lonely.

My best friend Amanda is going through some pretty serious life changing experiences right now and I'm doing my best to help, but I don't have a magic wand and my thoughts, ideas, and verbalization's are... 99% of the time what she probably does NOT want to hear. So I have to step back and let it be I guess.

Another friend of mine, Ed, has found himself a gal and well, the rest is history.

So about expanding that social circle of mine? This isn't going to be easy.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

30 days: day 17

Day 17: An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)

Back when I took an art class I had to replicate a painting and this is what I chose. Georgia O'Keeffe's painting of The Lawrence Tree.
Such a stunning tree. This painting can be hung in any direction because the interpretation is the same: you are under the tree looking up.
Love it!

30 days: catch up

Day 13: A fictional book
Day 14: A non-fictional book
Day 15: A fanfic

I'm skipping the book posts despite my great love of books. I have a really hard time with coming up with my own reading material, never mind referring something to you. I might recommend something at a later time. I'll keep you up to date when I do though :-)

Day 16: A song that makes you cry (or nearly)

This song is so incredibly powerful to me. My Dad introduced me to this song and Cowboy Junkies back in the day. The first few times I heard it with him I can remember that strong man crying and I have had that very same reaction since.


it hurts sometimes

I have a lot to say and have said quite a bit but ever feel like nobody is listening?

They hear you but they don't really hear you.

I can only say and do so much but because I care my heart seriously aches.

At this point, I'm going to sit back and not get involved... again.

This is going to be so painful.

Monday, June 14, 2010

reading

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...and I can feel my mind, heart and soul changing... and wanting to change.

Amazing.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

30 days: day 11

Day 11: A photo of you taken recently


Nothing crazy, fancy or spectacular. I was sitting in construction... patiently waiting of course, and decided to snap a picture of myself.

30 days: day 10

Day 10: A photo of you taken over ten years ago


I believe I'm 4 in this picture. Check out my grandfather smoking the Camel non filter's! Ohh and that yellow chair!! That ugly chair stayed in our family for years!

I miss them both.

30 days: day 9

Day 9: A photo you took


This was taken a few years back, you can tell because he is so tiny!
I took Cole to Fort Knox on a nice cool day to do some exploring. We always have a great time when we go.

I strongly encourage you to check out the link and read about the Fort and the Observatory our great state has. I'm so lucky to have this right in my back yard.

30 days: day 8

Day 8: A photo that makes you angry/sad


This is the tree that is in front of the house we used to live in. The home we moved to when Cole was only 20 months old and then left when he was 7. We both did a lot of growing there.

I miss this tree! It used to bloom beautiful flowers and you were only able to enjoy them for a few days, but those days were absolutely amazing.


Leaving everything behind that is/was connected to that house still makes me sad.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

not a sub

because....

I GOT THE JOB!!!

I'm so excited I could pee. I'm like brand new puppy excited.

I'm that excited. I don't think I'll be able to sleep for at least a week.

hot damn!!

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

30 days: day 7

Day 7: A photo that makes you happy


I absolutely love this picture.
I was laughing while trying to take our picture and he was having no part of it. (but notice that cute little smirk of his)
...and that is just how he started out 2nd grade... a little more independent and serious than the year before.

30 days: day 6

Day 6: Whatever tickles your fancy

Do not facebook stalk.
I repeat... do not facebook stalk.
I wish I could elaborate but I think we all know enough about this and what happens or doesn't happen.
If we're meant to know, we'll know. You go hunting for it-- you're bound to not like what you're going to find out.

...consider that my PSA for today.

you're welcome.

30 days: day 5

Day 5: Your favorite quote

I read this everyday. It's on my refrigerator to remind me of my transformation, everything I have been through and will continue to go through.

Sometimes it is just what I need to get through my day.

30 days: day 4

Day 4: Your favorite book

The fact that my favorite book is a children's book shouldn't surprise you.


I can remember my Gram reading this book to me and shortly after Cole was born, I bought him his own copy.

It's just that special!

Saturday, June 5, 2010

30 days: day 3

Day 3: Your favorite television program

It used to be ER. I cried when the season ended. I mean criiiiiiied! But then I found a new love and I know I will cry when this one ends next fall, on the 10 year anniversary of 9/11.

But there is no question, no doubt in my mind this is my favorite!

Rescue Me

Often times this show will leave me in tears, begging for another episode right away, or sitting on the edge of my seat! Oh, and let's not forget- Denis Leary, well he's easy on the eyes.

30 days: day 2

Day 2: Your favorite movie

Again... I have a few favorites but I think this one stole my heart because of one line in particular. It's the romantic in me I guess.


30 days of Me

This is going around and because it looks like fun I'm actually going to do it. I normally don't follow trends but what the heck right? Oh... and I have a few days of catch up to do so hang tight!

30 Days of ME
Day 1: Your favorite song
Day 2: Your favorite movie
Day 3: Your favorite television program
Day 4: Your favorite book
Day 5: Your favorite quote
Day 6: Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 7: A photo that makes you happy
Day 8: A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 9: A photo you took
Day 10: A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11: A photo of you taken recently
Day 12: Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13: A fictional book
Day 14: A non-fictional book
Day 15: A fanfic
Day 16: A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17: An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
Day 18: Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19: A talent of yours
Day 20: A hobby of yours
Day 21: A recipe
Day 22: A website
Day 23: A YouTube video
Day 24: Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25: Your day, in great detail
Day 26: Your week, in great detail
Day 27: This month, in great detail
Day 28: This year, in great detail
Day 29: Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30: Whatever tickles your fancy

Favorite song!

I have many favorite songs but I think this is at the top of my list. Not just because of the song but the video gave me goose bumps the first time I saw it and continues to.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

just a sub

I'm just a sub.

That's what I keep telling the kiddo I work with because she has high hopes I'll be her one on one ed tech next year.
In a few short days my job will be over, because I'm just a sub, and someone else will have the possibility to grab it and go.
BUT because I don't want to just be a sub I applied for the position.
I want this job! I need this job. To have some stability would be an amazing thing at this point in my life, in my son's life.
I submitted my resume, application and three great letters of recommendations.

Then I waited. And waited. I even waited some more and started to lose hope so I applied to other places for anything, anywhere I could submit my resume to.

Today, while at work I received a message to call the superintendent's office. I have an interview scheduled for next week!!

An interview!

I'm crawling out of my own skin. To sub I did not have to interview, it was a strange process but whatever.
I have to interview on Monday. I'm horrible at first impressions! Give me a few days and I can schmooze my way into your heart but there is no way in hell I can bat my eyelashes and make you my bitch in less than an hour!

Seriously.

I need to capture these people. This is super important because I'm up against people who have more qualifications than I do but I've been subbing for this position. Ya follow?

So... help me out. Give me all your hints, tips, tricks, advice! I want this so bad I can taste it.

...and it tastes so sweet.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

right now

this song just makes me feel happy and gives me hope!