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1. My middle name is the same as my Memere’s name
2. It makes me giggle when I get funny looks because I call my grandmother Memere. It’s French people!!
3. I have an older brother; by almost 6 years
4. We don’t have a relationship
5. I wish we did
6. My boyfriend is a career firefighter
7. I’m very proud of him
8. I live up the street from the fire station
9. I get very nervous when I hear the sirens and see them pulling out of the road
10. I get upset when people do not pull over for emergency vehicles
11. I’m a single mom
12. in college
13. I still have no idea what I want to do
14. I’m graduating soon
15. I’m nervous
16. I owe a lot of money
17. I’m scared
18. student loans are anxiously awaiting my payments
19. I was born smelling the Pacific Ocean
20. but grew up smelling the Atlantic Ocean
21. I want to go and put my feet in the Pacific Ocean
22. I don’t know if I ever did
23. I was a baby when we moved
24. my parents separated when I was 12
25. I moved in with my dad at 13
26. I have better childhood memories of my dad than my mom
27. I’m ok with that
28. I’ve had a “rough life”
29. Maybe that will change and turn around once I hit the “dirty 30”
30. I’m scared to death to turn 30
31. that is happening in less than 2 years; ok 1 year and 4 months
32. I’ve worn a diamond on my left ring finger before
33. but never engaged
34. he didn’t get down on one knee and ask
35. I helped pay for the ring
36. I hope my son never asks if his father and I were engaged
37. he knows we weren’t married
38. I wish I was a vegetarian
39. I don’t have the will power
40. All my teeth are sweet teeth
41. I don’t drink soda
42. it’s been 6 ½ years
43. I don’t miss it
44. but I miss the convenience of it
45. in 2002 I had gastric bypass surgery
46. that’s why I don’t drink soda
47. or eat a lot of red meat; if at all
48. it hurts my stomach
49. my body hasn’t been the same since
50. I have to take more drugs now than I did before
51. I’m an emotional mess
52. I love taking pictures
53. photography makes me happy
54. when a camera is in my hand I see the world around me differently
55. I’m hoping someday, somebody big, HUGE and important will see some of my photographs and decide to make me like them; big, HUGE and important
56. I love weddings
57. someday I’ll get to plan my own
58. or at least I hope
59. turning 30 in one year and four months has caused a new found biological clock
60. I had no idea it existed
61. it’s loud
62. it wakes me up at night
63. I never wanted to have just one child
64. my boy child was planned
65. nobody knew
66. not even his father
67. Oops he was not!
68. I hid the fertility predictor sticks in an empty shampoo bottle in the bathroom closet
69. I also flushed the birth control pills down the toilet
70. with no intentions of taking them
71. I’m not sorry
72. I use to color my hair so blonde it was almost white
73. now that I’m sorry for
74. When I see other people with that look I always say… “Who does that? Seriously?”
75. oh yea.. I did
76. I have a 36inch scar on my stomach
77. sometimes I am sorry for that
78. other days I’m not; especially when my jeans and shirts are fitting just right a flat stomach is nothing to be sorry for
79. my car was an impulse buy
80. I’m paying for it now
81. it is the biggest piece of shit!
82. Please Virginia tell me there really is a Santa
83. …and he’s bringing me a car
84. with a big red bow
85. boy child is asking Santa for a car for his Mommy
86. please do not disappoint
87. he’s too young
88. just about all my ex boyfriends have married the girl they dated after me
89. I can name almost all of them
90. it’s depressing
91. so I won’t
92. I’m the female version of Good Luck Chuck
93. I didn’t have marathon animal sex like Chuck did
94. but you can still call me “Good Luck Chick”
95. maybe my fireman will break my curse
96. my left hand is empty
97. I lied
98. a small tiny fake ass diamond occupies my middle finger
99. emerald and princess cuts are my favorite
100. 6.5 would be an appropriate size
101. in case you were wondering